I know I hurt you, caused you pain

I know I must have hurt you, caused you pain.
More, I know that I have lost your trust.
I wish I had that moment back again
To pulverize my carelessness and lust.
 

Sometimes we have to lose what we most cherish
To understand how much we are in need.
We play with life until we nearly perish
To dare the darkness, though within we bleed.
 

I need you as the sun must have a rose
To turn its empty radiance to glory,
Or as a nation needs someone who knows
The secrets of its long-forgotten story.
 

I know my need of you more than before;
Thus for my trespass you may trust me more.

That night I met you

This one is beautiful. I don't mean to be conceited. But, honestly this one is beautiful.


I saw you at the bar that night
Smiling with friends and sharing laughs
I'm staring at you but you didn't even realize
I want to know you better but you gone in the crowd

I'm looking for you all night long
In every place that I came along
Wondering where you are and what you do
I do whatever it takes just to know you

I saw you on the stage, later that night
You sing a beautiful song and make me smile
In the end you are smiling to the crowd
And I knew you're the one that I want

But then you go out with another man
And it breaks my heart so badly
You hold his hand and He tuck you in
My heart breaks even more, like a dagger stabbing it

Since that night I found you
I never found someone else
Cause I know I just want you
Just you and nothing else

Maybe I can never be with you
Cause you're too good for me
Too good and I can't get you
And too bad that you'll never know me


*There's something really interesting and nice happened yesterday. But, I can't tell you here in my blog. Maybe next time I'll tell you what happened.Cause if I do it here, It will be a total disaster.

Hurt

Again this is not my poem. This is a song by Nine inch Nails made famous by the all-time greatest artist Johnny Cash.


I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

Although You Are with Someone Else

Although you are with someone else,
I want to have my say
Without invading your domain
Or scaring you away.

I respect the choice you made
And all that you decide,
But I would just like you to know
I want you by my side.

As a lake deep in a wood
Awaits a cool, fresh breeze,
I will wait, a patient eye,
While you do as you please.

Wild is the wind - Bon Jovi

Okay this isn't a poem. It's a song by my all time favourite band: Bon Jovi.


I tried to make you happy
You know I tried so hard to be
What you hoped that I would be
I gave you what wanted
God couldn't give you what you need
You wanted more from me
Than I could ever be
You wanted heart and soul
But you didn't know, baby

Wild, wild is the wind
That takes me away from you
Cold is the night without your love
To see me through
Wild, wild is the wind
That blows through my heart

Wild is the wind,
Wild is the wind
You got to understand, baby
Wild is the wind

You need someone to hold you
Somebody to be there night and day
Someone to kiss your fears away
I just went on pretending
Too weak, too proud, too tough to say
I couldn't be the one
To make your dreams come true
That's why I had to run
Though I needed you, baby

Wild, wild is the wind
That takes me away from you
Cold is the night without your love
To see me through, baby
Wild, wild is the wind
That blows through my heart tonight
That tears us apart

Wild is the wind,
Wild is the wind
You got to understand, baby
Wild is the wind

[Solo]

Maybe a better man
Would live and die for you
Baby, a better man would
Never say goodbye to you

Wild, wild is the wind
That takes me away from you
Cold is the night without your love
To see me through, baby
Wild, wild is the wind
That blows through my heart tonight
That tears us apart

Wild is the wind,
Wild is the wind
You got to understand, baby
Wild is the wind

When Fortune tell a lie

Made on October 07th 2010

What's in my heart
Is not the same as yours
Fighting for this is difficult
Like all the things I've been through

You are special inside my heart
But you never feel the same
You could tell me to go to hell
Then leave me dying under the rain

Just like everything
Even good love has to die
Ain't no sympathy
When you say goodbye

I never thought I'd lose you
No I'd rather go blind
I thought I saw a future
But the fortune tell a lie

My heart have been shattered and bruised
And you know what it feels like when you lose
I can't keep my faith
I let it all on the line for you

Untitled

My newest one. I can't decide the title.

I'm watching you in Happiness.
You brought smile to my face.
But that will end soon.
As you go out with someone else.

When you smile at someone
Then I breaking down in tears
When you hold somone's hand
The sky fall down onto my head

Why do you hurt me like this?
Don't you realize the love that I get for you?
Is it hard for you to know my feelings?
Or you didn't even care with this kind of love?

Faith of our love

One of the newest poem I've made

I've seen heaven in your beautiful eyes
Very wonderful and makes me smile
I've been looking for this my whole life
Only you and me, holding hands, and sharing laughs

But the heaven didn't last long
It was the day you went away
One day before I still live in heaven
Now It turns into hell

"Ironic"
Yeah, that's the word
After 60+ days we love each other
Then we begin to hate each other

The crow who at first fell in love with a dove
Soon betrayed her
And fly away through darkness of the night

In the depths of Hell I cried
I don't mean to hurt you like that
You looking at me by the distance
Offering me help that I ignored

But soon I realized
It is all my fault
I'm begging for forgiveness
And begging you for coming back

Now that you've forgive me
And I still have the love that I got for you
Although the heaven will never come back
At least you and me can still holding hands

Your feelings towards me

 Made on August 12th 2010


Day after day I'm watching you
You still don't even care about me
Don't you realize the love that I had for you
Is the only secret left for me to keep

Everytime I talked you don't say any words
Everytime I cried you don't seem even care
I want you to see me in a different point of view
So you'll know that the love I got for you is true

I want to share happiness with you
I want to share tears with you
But I know you don't love me
And I know you don't care

Can you look into my eyes for a moment?
So you can see the fires in my eyes
They burn in fires
Until the end of time

Whether It's true or not
I know you don't have any other feelings except hatred to me
But I will love you endlessly
Because this love comes from the deepest part from my heart

Love for sale

Made on August 29th 2010.
note: this is not bon jovi's song


There's a sadness in my eyes
I can't even say goodbye
You are the one who set it up
And you are the one who make it stop

You give me nothing
And it's all I got
And whatever we got
It's just not getting enough

Thinking about you it's just wastes of time
It's caused by the stupid love I got every night

But my eyes are blind
And my hearts are shakin'
Can't control myself
Can't control my mind

Every words you say is a heavenly tune
Every night I spent with you is wonderland
But you are just a devil's disguise
Searching victim's and left them behind

And if the love that I got for you is gone
There's no way I want to cry
It is my commitment
Never to love you again

I found myself gone crazy when I'm with you
And you don't even care about me
I talked to myself everytime I talk to you
Ain't got love and those damn thing

I won't say I love you
Cause you told me to go to hell
Then I have no hope anymore
Now this love is for sale